hazzan Diana Brewer was ordained through the aleph ordination program. she leads prayer services regularly at the jewish community of amherst, and is on the staff of the davvenen leadership training institute.

Omer Day 47 הוד שבמלכות Hod SheBeMalchut

Receptivity. Spaciousness. Awe. Gratitude. Humility. Splendor within Sovereignty. Majesty. Indwelling Presence. Selfitude. Reality. Actualization.

I truly am in Awe as I watch each of us in my little family become and become and become. Even the cat! We are showing up and doing our homework, and so everybody is settling down a little more. Kitty is hanging out downstairs more frequently as she learns that it is safe. Pooch is hanging out more and more in her safe space (aka crate) as it becomes more and more clear that that is a really great option. Oy, there is still MUCH work to be done (I’ll be happy when a 15 minute walk doesn’t feel like an obstacle course in trying to avoid any and all other dogs in the neighborhood and the accompanying leaping and barking), but things are changing.

The other thing I notice is that her presence is like a giant magnifying glass on any issue that exists in any of us. As I’ve mentioned, I now have a toddler (canine) and a ‘tween (girl child) in the house. As the human kiddo comes more and more into her Selfitude, all of the pitfalls of that process are magnified by the presence of the toddler pooch. As I’ve also mentioned, this is really causing me to have to be Receptive to the Still Small Voice, which serves as a translator for the messages being hurled at me by my two little beauties in two different languages - both of which could be described as barking.

As I look at my array of words above - all these different qualities found within their qualities - I am especially drawn to Humility and Indwelling Presence. Today seemed to have “Frustration” as its theme. Lots of barking from all dependents, for starters. When I am frustrated, it seems to me I’m not quite remembering the Humility of being just one little tiny cog in the many moving parts that make up any given moment, all of which are contained within the Presence, which is Dwelling within each of these parts. 

I pray that I may stay in this Humility in the day devoted to healing this Sefira. I pray that I may remain Receptive to the needs of those close to me as we all continue in our Awesome processes of Actualization. 


Omer Day 48 יסוד שבמלכות Yesod SheBeMalchut

Omer Day 46 נצח שבמלכות Netzach SheBeMalchut