hazzan Diana Brewer was ordained through the aleph ordination program. she leads prayer services regularly at the jewish community of amherst, and is on the staff of the davvenen leadership training institute.

Omer Day 25 נצח שבנצח Netzach SheBeNetzach

Eternity. Perseverence. Victory. Will. Leadership. Horizon within Horizon. Leadership. Will. Victory. Perseverence. Eternity.

It's wondrously gigantic, isn't it? I noted way back in the week of Chesed that I sometimes experience a disconnect between the idea of tight or narrow places as times of hardship and wide open spaces as times of freedom and goodness. I get it, but I also have a tendency to feel overwhelmed by too much space. I like corners, nooks, etc. Remember? That is why I'm intrigued by the fact that, as I think of the most expansive version of Netzach SheBeNetzach - Eternity within Eternity - I feel a deep happiness and calm. I'll take it.

I experience this calm as a release of/relief from pressure. It means I don’t have to be perfect. It  means I get another chance. It means that as long as I Persevere in my partnership with G-d, there will be Victories on the Horizon as I stumble forward.

Besides the Expanse, there is another aspect of Eternity that I, for one, don't think about too often (and I bet I'm not alone). A while back, my mentor Hazzan Jack Kessler was good enough to bring the idea of the "microinfinite" to my attention. Let's face it - Eternity is Eternity and can be expanded or reduced infinitely. What is this? To me, it is the presence of the Eternal within every particle, sub-particle, sub-sub-particle... You get the idea.

It's wondrously gigantic, isn't it?


Omer Day 26 הוד שבנצח Hod SheBeNetzach

Omer Day 24 תפארת שבנצח Tiferet SheBeNetzach