hazzan Diana Brewer was ordained through the aleph ordination program. she leads prayer services regularly at the jewish community of amherst, and is on the staff of the davvenen leadership training institute.

Omer Day 28 מלחות שבנצח Malchut SheBeNetzach

Dignity. Reality. Consolidation. Actualization. Sovereignty. Selfitude within Persistence. Day-to-Day. Generative Energy. Active Force. Endurance. Eternity. 

This morning I see a river. The Actualization of a Persistent, Enduring Active Force that Generates Energy. I almost feel I could stop writing right there.

But let's keep exploring. I've been really looking forward to this week of Netzach. As it approached, I started to become very aware that Netzach is an energy that I could use more of in my personal balance. Needless to say, it is not something I lack entirely - I am also very aware of the ways in which this Force is Active in my life. Happily, G8d is Infinitely Generous and always willing to offer opportunities for growth when I show signs of being ready. I have had several such opportunities over the course of this week, and feel something new about it Consolidating in me.

I am also thinking of the Reality of my life beyond the scope of this week, and the things that have Actualized as a result my Persistence. One of my favorite inside jokes with myself is found in the following comment that people often make when they find out that I'm a musician. It goes something like this, "You're a musician? You must be very disciplined!" I laugh to myself, knowing that while I have developed discipline in spades over the almost-20 years I have been in recovery, it was not my natural state before that time. Not by a long shot. However, from day 1, I began to learn about Persistence, Endurance, and Day-to-Day practice. This, of course, played out in my approach to my musical life and, in fact, every area of my life.  

Any success I have had in my musical career is a result of this Persistent, Generative Energy. I see that the transformation that has been happening in me as a spiritual leader is an Actualization of this Persistence. I see that the pleasure of being on tour with my outstanding band mates this week is another way in which this Manifests. I see that the love and affection my family has for me (to say nothing of Enduring patience!) are another (and deeply appreciated) face of my ability to show up to the Day-to-Day. 

One of the pages of my cherished daily meditation book reads: "G8d needs our efforts, we need G8d's Blessing." That pretty much sums it up for me. 

May you be blessed with the Endurance to continue as an Active Force in your life until such time as your Efforts are Blessed into Reality.

Omer Day 29 חסד שבהוד Chesed SheBeHod

Omer Day 27 יסוד שבנצח Yesod SheBeNetzach